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 I will leave it like this for a month or less and then I'm going to delete it permanently. So.. If there is anything left unsaid, now would be the perfect time to say it to me ! :D


Oh, don't worry.. I already have a new journal x) Just leave a comment and I'll give you the username so you can friend me. If I haven't told you already everything about it cause I'm so proud of the style xD

The last time saying namaste..
- Grace -

Meh, crappy day.. Till I took this test :D

Which L word character are you?
Jenny You are a sarcastic bitch who's gone through a lot of fcked up and even supernatural shit. You just don't give a shit what people think of you. You love you some good pussy. You tend to express yourself in writing.
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Oh and yeah, I AM working on a longer entry than these last ones. I think.

L is for Love. And W is for worshiping Jenny (and V is still for Vendetta but I'm so not going there right now).



Live, Laugh, Love.. Grace

I'm waiting for Lost Media to upload screencaps from today's *amazing* Lost episode, Catch 22. I can't really think about anything else now, besides how excited am I about my decision to make a hundred icons out of it ^^ I'm keeping my fingers crossed for good quality captures, because I can't find HQ anywhere lately.. And I'm definitely gonna make a lot Desmond ones, dude rocks! ^^

Meanwhile (I'm not going to wait till 3 o'clock in the morning again like I did today so I could download Lost the first minute it appeared on torrents ^^), I would like to write some interesting (or unusual) facts about me..


.. I hardly ever cry. Instead, when I'm feeling depressed or scared, I pretend to be a statue. Do not laugh, it helps. A lot. And that's like.. a huge confession to make for me, cause I kept it as secret for four years now I think.. Wouldn't it be wonderful if you could just petrify and people would pass you by, thinking you're just a piece of art? Please don't laugh, anything but that..

.. I'm terribly afraid of clowns. I know they're just masked men, but whoa, they're scary as hell. I think a drunk clown hurt me once.. But I can't be sure cause I think i was drunk too xD

.. I don't like animals. maybe that's so because I love fur on coats. Anyway, I don't know how to act around them, especially pets. The only ones I like are foxes and I don't have anything against cats either. And that's basically it.

.. I have a huge crush on Tchaikovsky :D Classical music is love, though I don't listen to it very often.

.. I've never been in love. Not for real. And I'm terribly afraid of serious relationships *hides under the bed*.

.. I think I'm born to run. Sooner or later I'm gonna do something terribly wrong and I'm going to spend the rest of my life hiding from the authorities.

.. I would do anything and give everything to reverse time.

.. My biggest wish is to be born in an English-speaking family <3 Australian, if possible.

.. I'm going to die on September 28th 2038. I made my peace with it so DO NOT try to tell me that's not what's going to happen because I know it is.



Use these information under precaution ^^ *remembers the old times* Wheee I love the confession game *grin*

* NOTE
This might be a little bit harder to understand if you didn't watch the movie. Or if you don't know me very well.

I shall make me a willow cabin at your gate and call upon my soul within the house;
Write loyal cantons of contemned love and sing them loud even in the dead of night;
Halloo your name to the reverberate hills and make the babbling gossip of the air cry out 'Victoria!'

vanessaryan123: "It makes me sad that society has to put everything in a box and have a label for it as negative or positive as that can and is most times. Especially when it comes to one's gender.
I really hope the world could and eventually be more open minded and excepting in the future-real soon, hopefully while I'm still alive. "


* NOTE
Act titles partially borrowed from Lost promos.


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Act 1, Confrontation
I did that part long time ago.
It includes lots of courage, better understanding of what you and other people are thinking in general and how do they feel about everything that is not exactly the part of their everyday life.
Or of course, you can just come to conclusion that you don't give a damn and live just like you used to. That was the option I took after two or three months of inside struggle (which was totally unnecessary).

Act 2, Finding yourself
Never quite sure when I did that (if I did at all) but it feels like I'm pretty much found so I guess I did o.0 Now that's a confussed sentance.
Nothing else to explain here. You just have to stop deluding yourself.

Act 3, Fight for survival
Includes; faking (lots and lost of it), not saying anything, even though you feel that your head is going to explode of anger, not imagining how great it would be otherwise.
Paulie's PoV (much more likable but equaly more unreal); domesticate a raptor, stabbing a sword in your rival's leg, almost raping your lover? Um. Ummm.

Act 4 (optional), Live to escape
Don't know that much about it, but I know it belongs between Act 3 and 5 o.0
Oh, oh! I've got an idea! Living in a cave and not going out. And if life forces you to get lost in a crowd, you put a paper bag on your head and cut out two wholes for your eyes.
Paulie's PoV; commit a suicide.
Tori's PoV; avoiding your lover and telling lies to everyone else.

Act 5, The barriers (Grace PoV only)
..Wentworth Miller :D (BIG time!!)
..Michaels o.0 lol
..Josh Holloway in Lost s01 and s02
..Tom Welling ^^ (no, my name is not Mary :P)


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Explanation: Fake Lena was kissing someone (On the cheek? Please let it be on the cheek!!) a minute before she arrived to our usual spot. And she acted like it was nothing.

x.x

Staying optimistic: does she have a brother??